I couldn't decide where this should go so I put it here in general.

Well, I know I have a distinct furry side, but usually I barely notice it's there, and don't mind it. But every so often, I find it makes for very weird and akward conflicts with what should be simple logic.

The other night, I had this dream. I once again found myself in the fantasy where I was a fox shapeshifter. (this time, though it was more of a 'Wolf's Rain' style tranformation). Anyway, my family and I were prepping for a camping trip, to a different corner of the woods where I met Vexin a while back. Hopefully I'd have the luck to see her again. At any rate, that was the main reason for the trip, to give me a bit of R&R time in the deep woods without having to worry about other humans and keeping my secret identity and stuff. I think the plan was they'd leave me there for a week, and pick me up later. Emotionally, I felt, well..anticipation, I guess. I was going home, to the forest, where I could just let loose and explore. I'd finally have time to just be a fox for a while... And there it ended, as I reached the forest. Bad ending, but good for a future story, Iguess.

Now that was an interesting dream, and nothing I'd be particularly alarmed about in and of itself. But there's more. My family actually IS planning a camping trip this weekend (coincidence? probably not). Thing is, after I woke up, The emotion from my dream, sorta...stayed in my head. I felt the same way all morning about this real life camping trip, as the one in my dream. It was like the exact same thing. Emotionally, I felt like "I'm going home, to the forest, where I belong" just like in my dream. On the other hand, however, I know in my heart and in my mind that this is silly. I am a human being, not a fox. My home is not the forest. Obviously this emotion I'm feeling is, well, it just isnt right. This emotion is invalid. Error! Error! Illegal Operation Fault - Please save all open files and reboot your computer!

Okaay....mabye not THAT bad...But really, I didn't know what to think. I am excited to be going on this camping trip, and I do like that dream I had, and this little fantasy world where I'm a fox is neat, and there's nothing wrong with it in itself. But I guess what alarms me is this emotion which carried over a little to far into real life. I know it's silly, and I shouldn't be feeling it at all. It just seems wrong to me, because I'm just a human, and that is what I was meant to be, and to be thinking otherwise is just crazy, so I should get this emotion out of my head. It's a real conflict inside me between these emotions, human and furry, and I'm biased in both directions. It doesn't show that much on the outside, but on the inside I just feel really...uncertain, akward, you know? The end result was that I felt really akward and confused for most of the morning.

Just thought I'd vent a bit, and wonder if anyone here understands what I'm talking about at all.

Yeah, I think I understand what you feel.

Our precious vacation (first time in Norway), we where in

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, next to the border of Sweden. This is the "closest" I'm ever bin to wild Wolves, as they live there in that area. The views around Trysil were GREAT. Forests as far as you can see, beyond the horizon. Every time I was in that forest, I had that feeling of 'being home'. Well, not exactly as what you described, ultra, but more as 'I used to be here, and now I'm back here at home'. It wasn't that I was TRYING to belief it, it just popped into my mind when I was there.
It wasn't annoying though, it was as if everything was on the right place.





I still want to go back there. Maybe? In the far far future? Who knows...


But anyway, maybe you _should_ try rebooting??

Haha, I don't know how to 'reboot' a human. But By the end of the day I was fine, and I never had another thought of it on the trip. Even when I recall the dream, I can't quite get that emotion as strong as it was that morning.

Probably it was a minor glitch in my brain due to waking up too fast (or not fast enough.) I'm actually hopeing it happens again sometime, to tell the truth. It was an interesting little experience.

I wonder if a similar sort of mental abberation is what causes people to go crazy and think they're werewolves or something. At least I caught myself long before I got carried away, but I'm thinking that might have been the path my mind was on before it derailed ...